The water is ready

I meant to make the eggs over easy and instead I got over medium. Today is Sunday and it is not a day for runny eggs.

On Wednesday, I was running water for a bath. Feeling unusually calm. I lit a cigarette and poured a glass of wine. You shouldn't be smoking, you haven't recovered from that cold. I know, I say, putting it out.

I think about suicide. I am not suicidal. I think about suicide. I check on the water. I think of Whitney. Do you? Do you think of Whitney when you soak in a bath and the water reaches your neck? Oh.

I long for potato chips the way I think some women long to be touched by a man. The moans inside a crunch. The salt sitting on my wet tongue. More. Olive oil and salt, please. Have you tried these? Oh.

It's late. A car screeches just outside the window. A plane descending. Where from? Somewhere east. Shhh, listen, listen. After the plane passes, you can hear the palm trees swaying.

The water is ready, says no one.

I run my fingers through it to check for warmth.

A robe falls.

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Reading:

People who demand nothing of you (or, notes on charismatic people)

Are You Overreacting? How to survive when provocations are a natural—and inescapable—part of life

Watching:

Diary of a CEO featuring Vanessa Van Edwards - as someone who carries a level of social anxiety and introverted tendencies, this is one of my favorites. The Founder of ‘Science of People’, gives people science-backed skills to improve communication and leadership. Topics include: the scientific formula to be more charismatic, body language and connection, improving dating, conversing with strangers. Send me Diary of a CEO recommendations, please.

The Infiltrator - A canny federal agent navigates a deadly world where one mistake could get him killed: the criminal underworld of Colombia ruled by Pablo Escobar.

The Menu - horror, odd comedy. A couple travels to a remote restaurant for a dinner hosted by a renowned chef whose menu turns out to be a fusion of dark spectacle and raw terror.